八月 二十三日。 - l e t t e r

I'm a l m i g h t y !

I finally maganed to write my friend a letter.. I think it took me over half a year. Well whatever.. we don't send eachother letters every month anyway..
Made this dude for her.. man, cutting it out was a misery.



I have only one week to go until I have to go back to school. DNW ..fucking crazy shit man..
tomorrow morning Kaku will come here and we will go to a VIP-party, after that I will visit orthodontist then we will stay at Kaku's home.
On thursday we will carry our textbooks home .. after that I don't know where I'm gonna stay.. but on friday Kaku is probably coming to Rakvere again to buy some stuff for school.. I'm invited too, but I might go to Tallinn with my grandmother.

free unorganised time, where did you go?

ever since my dad listened to this song [my dad ] it's been hopelessly stuck in my head..

love it ♥

八月 二十一日。 - n o f u c k s

a n d n o t e v e n a s i n g l e f u c k w a s g i v e n t o d a y

Today has been such a wonderful day, even my dream was cool.
I saw that we were in a world that reminded me the destroyed city of Toshima from Togainu no Chi, for some unknown reason Desu carried me on her back.. then one badass-looking bro came and we started fighting .. I had something knife-like. I don't know if we won, but I'm sure in it, because we were wayy level higher than him.

Then when I were awake I made some A W E S O M E pancakes. I haven't made so good yet. After that I watched some episodes of Coffee Prince and listened to jrock.. man, I haven't listened to that music for a looong time.

Kaku told me about that 'party' she went to. Man, that was a lowlife party. No respect from me. I stayed kinda silent when she told me about it, cuz I have no intentions of telling what I really think cause that might really hurt 'someone's' feelings. I don't like telling people what I think about things I don't like. She told me that next time we meet she won't leave me alone until I tell her what I think. I pity her. It's gonna be hard because I still want to get along with her.
And then she got rly mad at me because I forgot to visit MK with her account. o.o .. and what's even more weirder I didn't even get mad.. XD

And then my friend from UK made me a picture!! YAAAYYY!! PICS SPECIALLY FOR ME!!

And now I'm PARTYING HARD!! listening to music RLY loud.. this is awesome.

八月 十八日。

YAHHOOO, GREETINGS ! !

I just realised that I've been damn lazy this summer. Comparing to last summer it's like I haven't blogged at all. The reason is probably that I've got so many things I want to do, and when I have time to write something I have no idea what to write.

About a week ago I bought all the things I needed for school. Yesterday I bought a hairbrush.. now I'm kinda in love with it. o__o I'm so weird..

Lately I've been watching BL movies such as Takumi-kun series, Ai no Kotodama & Antique. It's a nice alternation for straight couples and anime. Even though yesterday after midnight I watched all 12 episodes of Sekaiichi Hatsukoi.
I'm sure this summer I've made my record of watching stuff (anime, movies & dramas), but I feel happy.


Yesterday I redownloaded Perfect World. And made a new account. I have a male character now! HELLYAYYY!!! I'm incredibly happy about it. And I've got the best name ever - Vanaisa (grandfather) .. rofl, inside joke but still

whoah, after writing the title I realised that today is 18th August which is my name day.
oh wow..

七月 三十日。 - battle ignition

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Rosary (ScReW)
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Run for your Life (the Creepshow)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Under the Chaos (Sadie)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Six Foot Deep (Creature Feature)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
unchain wing (deathgaze)
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Heat (Mimicry)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?Snowflower (Plastic Tree)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Evergreen (Hyde)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Black and Yellow (Wiz Khalifa)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Elektrik (Wismari Poisid)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Sacrifice Baby (exist trace)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Vampire Depression (vamps)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Boulevard of Broken Dreams (Green Day)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Anata (L'Arc~en~Ciel)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Flow Snow (Deluhi)
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Shout at the Devil (L'Arc~en~Ciel)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Deep Red (vamps)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Psycho Garden (Plastic Tree)
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Vain (Moi dix Mois)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Resonance (exist trace)

WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOU?
obscure (Dir en Grey)
HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE YOUR PARENTS?
Nädalalõpp (Koit Toome , tujurikkuja)

HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
Suspicion (Kenji Kawaii)

HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?
Fiction (Plastic Tree)

WHAT IS SOME GOOD ADVICE?
Are you ready to Rock? (Miyavi)

WHAT DOES EVERYONE ELSE THINK ABOUT YOUR CURRENT LIFE?
Low (Flo-rida ft. T-Pain)

WHAT WILL YOUR DYING WORDS BE?
Mr Misfortune (Hadouken!)

WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Nothing can be Explained (Shiro Sagisu, instrumental)

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Girl meets Girl (SuG)

WHAT DO PEOPLE ASSUME WHEN THEY FIRST LOOK AT YOU?
May Day (Plastic Tree)

WHAT WILL YOUR SAY IF SOMEONE IS TRYING TO MURDER YOU?
Baddest Presentiment (Shiro Sagisu)
WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
SIX Feelings (Suwabe Junichi [Grimmjow Jeagerjaques])

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF CHILDREN?
Hello (Hyde)


WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
Grudge of Sorrow (Sadie)

WHAT WILL YOU BE DOING IN A FEW YEARS?
Episode (Versailles)
HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?
Bass Down Low (Dev ft. the Cataracs)
WHAT WILL BE THE BIGGEST CHALLENGE IN YOUR LIFE?
intro (the GazettE)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Insanity (Lycaon)
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Pink Killer (Dir en Grey)
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Flower (L'Arc~en~Ciel)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
2 be wiz U (Miyavi)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Gamble (Girugamesh)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
the Farthest (Deluhi)
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Son of Bitch (Miyavi)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Sexy Back (Justin Timberlake)

WHAT'S YOUR MOST USED PHRASE?
So what (P!nk)
WHAT YOU DEFINATELY AREN'T?
Snow (Fake?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF OTHER PEOPLE?
Mindless (Perestroika)

WHAT'S YOUR BIGGEST WISH?
Such Horrible Things (Creature Feature)

WHAT DO YOU HATE?
million $ orchestra (SuG)
WHAT WILL YOU BEQUEATH TO OTHERS?
The Fate (Shiro Sagisu)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DESTROY?
Diamond Dust (Shiro Sagisu)

WHAT DO YOU THINK AS THE FIRST THING WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
Rock it (Gorillaz)


WHAT DO YOU SAY TO YOUR FRIENDS OFTEN?
Decode (Paramore)

WHAT DOES IRRITATE YOU THE MOST?
What A Wonderful World (miyavi)
WHAT DO YOU LOVE?
Hate You (2NE1)

WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
Hole (the GazettE)
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Battle Ignition (Shiro Sagisu)

七月 二十五日。 - s h o pp i ng

Today was a nice day.

As I said before @ 3PM some weirdasses probably came to visit me, but since I had no intention to look what they offer me, I went out for 2 hours & bought lotsa stuff. I marched through the town like a warrior cuz I was so proud of not giving a fuck about those advertisers. I spent over 30 minutes in 1 shop to find the best thing for my friend. But again I spent so much money that it scares me. But those things are worth it..

Now I'm gonna write a letter to my friend in UK. She just had a birthday but I haven't sent her a present yet. And she's still sending me my bday present cuz in spring their post office burned and then a new one opened after 2 months (?).. then she sent me something but it got lost on the way. .. life sure is interesting.

七月 二十二日。 - u p d a t e

Just finished all the updates here. Blog looks so much better than before.
so H A P P Y ~ about that

.. and not happy too. It feels like someone just wrote my name into death note. the story:
our phone rang and I was alone so I decided to pick it up. There was someone who wanted to visit my home to present something that cleans and then ask for my opinion of it. I told her that my mother is not home, so she asked how old I was. I replied 14 & she almost gave up and said that she will call when my mom's home. I felt so relieved~
and after 10 minutes phone rang again and there was again this woman. This time she adressed me as Mrs.. I had no fucking idea what to do so I agreed them to come to present this miracle-machine. Man, I feel so bad now~ .. and the time when they're coming is so bad too, cuz my mother isn't home then and probably can't come too. And I even don't remember what was the name of the group so my mom could maybe cancel the appointment. This is the worst thing that has happened to me this summer. I'M D00MED!!

六月 二十五日。

I'm back from the trip..

well I just can't write anything about it so I'll put here the best picture I did on the Danube.


It was a good experience
even though I can't say I really liked it.

Mood: in love , little embarrassed
Listening to: f(x) - Dangerous

六月 十一日。

Käisin täna laadal, kuigi mul oli alguses plaanis mitte minna.
Mul õnnestus mingi ime kombel oma aastavanune lubadus isegi täita - sain Karmengia-sama'le sama astroloogia raamatu, mis mul on.
Ja peale selle sain ma veel lehviku!
YAYY!!

and I failed to make a picture of it...
.. text is reversed.. o---o

Some weird ppl also sold fake katanas (and other swords) at the fair. .. I was like 'uhhh, what a disgrace'..

Mood: good
Listening to: Kousaki Satoru - Konata no Theme (Chuukintou Version)

六月 九日。

YOHHOO!!

On Sunday evening I suddenly typed 'samurai' in google. And I don't know how but I found series named 'Samurai High School'. I didn't think that I would like it.. but from the really beginning I sterted to love it. ... ooohhh woooooow..
I tell ya, I haven't seen anything better than that and Bleach. ♥

I so lauged when I saw this:



And I managed to visit library on Tuesday! You can call that an ACHIEVEMENT!
Võtsin kohustuslikust kirjandusest "Väikese Printsi" ja ns mingi "Jaapan läbi aegade". See Jaapani raamat on palju huvitavam. o'___'o

Mood: good
Listening to: Kagamine Len - Shinseiki ~New Millenium~

六月 五日。

Täna polegi eriti midagi tarka ära teinud..

mängisin natuke, käisin jalutamas.. ja värvisin suurest igavusest küüsi.
Ma ei värvi kunagi küüsi, sest ma tahan, et need ilusad oleks, ainult selleks, et oma aega millegagi sisustada, mis võtab palju aega.




I should visit the library tomorrow maybe cuz I feel like I should read something. I wish they had manga there..

Mood: H A P P Y ! ~
Listening to: Megadeth - Go to Hell

六月 四日。

Hayy!

uus vb suvisem kujundus.
otsustan, et hakkan kirjutama selles keeles, mis keeles mul kõige rohkem tuju kirjutada on.

*madly in love wiz her new header*

Crazy stuff. I'm already almost on 17th level on PW. And I almost everything is finished on Island of Broken Dreams. Loads of new skills and stuff.. exciting!
Probably my favourite screenshot from it. Old times.. XD


Suvevaheaeg on nii tore. ♥
Ma saan igasuguseid asju teha, mida ma tahan ja millaliganes ma tahan.
2 nädala pärast tulev reis teeb natuke murelikuks, aga ma ei pea sellele mõtlema. Naljakas on see, et ma lähen sinna suht ainult sellepärast, et bussiga kaua sõita saaks. XD ..

Mood: good, happy
Listening to: Gwen Stefani - What You Waiting For?

no idea.. ||back from there||..

Hi err'one!~

Today is like the best day of my life.. I went to school for geography's orienteering what teacher said should be about 2 hours. We (me, Karmengia-sama & Reelika) finished it with less than 25 minutes. Tomi-sensei stalked us, btw. o---o .. do we have some kind of stalkers school?!
After that we run into our homeroom teacher and helped her to write marks. And then I got home @ 11 am. ain't it great?

I started playing a MMORPG recently. Perfect World (international genesis).. and what's even more great.. I got Karmengia-sama to play it too! YAAAHHHHOOOO!!~ (VICTORY!)

about the trip
If they're going to Vainupea next year too, then I won't come. It was pretty boring, there were tons of gnats & I couldn't stand some ppl. If Karmengia-sama wouldn't be there then I would have liked to go to home even by foot. B class fuckers shook and threw ball at our tent(acle). And what more.. they shouted loudly all night. I managed to get only 2 hours of sleep. When I was riding back to Rakvere I fell asleep at least 20 times, and when I got home I immediately went to bed and sleeped for 4 hours. When I woke up I rushed into kitchen and asked my mom what time it was. She said it was 9 o'clock at I was completely shocked cuz I thought it was 9 o'clock in the morning. XD


come and walk wiz me

100.

1. Where were you three hours ago? - Same place as right now
2. What is your biggest dream? - to be successful, so I'd have a lot of money and people would admire me
3. Have you ever eaten chalky? - nope
4. Is there anything pink in one meter radius? - nope
5. When did you visit a trade center lately? - dunno
6. Are you wearing socks? - yes
7. Do you own something in value 1000€? - no
8. When did you visit lately a place out of a city? - yesterday
9. Have you visited cinema in last five days? - nooo~ , I WANNA GO TO CINEMAAA!!
10. Are you beautiful? - Depends on the day, but usually yes.
11. What was the last thing you drunk? - milk 8D
12. What are you wearing at the moment? - Skirt, shirt, hoodie, socks
13. Do you enjoy washing a car? - I has no car
14. What was the last thing you ate? - fried potatoes
15. Where were you a week a ago at this time? - at the muzeum maybe
16. Have you bought a new clothing in the past week? - nope
17. Where was the last place you ran in? - my dream
18. What was the last sport event you watched? - skiing in winter
19. Favourite animal? - snow leopard maybe
20. The dream location of a holiday? - home
21. Last house you were in, home doesn't count? - school
22. The worst damage on your body? - don't have any
24. Do you miss somebody at the moment? - no .. in my opinion only weak people miss
25. Last relative you saw? dad
26. If you had a super-power, what would it be? - moving hyper-fast
27. What are you going to do today? - dunno
28. Who was the last person you texted to? - don't remember
29. Next trip? - to Hungary next month
30. Have you ever been in a camp? - no
31. Are you an excellent student? - if I want to then yes
32. What are you going to do in the future? - stuff
33. Do you have a perfume on right now? - no
34. Have you visited a doctor this year? - yes
05. Where's your best friend? - everywhere
36. How is you best friend feeling? - no idea
37. Are you suntanned? - almost not
38. What are you listening to? - Hadouken! - Mic Check + I hear tv playing
39. Are you collecting anything? - knowledge about everything, money!!, sunglasses, make-up, memories, clothes, buttons, jewellery
40. Who's the biggest gossip girl among your friends? - Helena probably
41. When was the last time you saw a police? - dunno
42. Have you ever drank lemonade with culm? - yes
43. What was in the late text-message you got? - dunno
44. Do you like spicy foods? - yes
45. When was the last time you had a shower? - thursday
46. Is there any need to wash you laundry? - yes
47. What's your favourite tree? - Pine, White Willow, Birch
48. Are you somebody's best friends? - eh?
49. Are you rich? - yes, richer than you.. my mind is freakin rich
50. What did you do yesterday at 12am? - I was at school
51. What's the weather? - SUNNNNNYYYY!!
52. What kind of sweven you had? - too much of them.. want me to write a book? :D
53. Boiled or fried eggs? - boiled
54. Have you ever given a money to the homeless ppl? - no
55. Do you have any nicknames? - lots of.. Shiberu, Shib, Sheep, Džiip, Rula (skateboard) , pervert (I hate that one), tüdruk (girl, my dad calls me like that)
56. What toothpaste you use? - Blend-a-med Ocean Power
57. Who was the last person you talked in phone? - mom
58. Money or love? - everything
59. Are you addicted to anything? - music
60. Is there any rumors about you? - haven't heard any
61. Have you peed in your pants, 'cause you laughed too hard? - yes, multiple times actually. XD
62. Do you think you're ghetto? - nah dunnno
63. In your opinion - can animals talk? - depends on the animal
64. What is the first thing that you think of when you wake up? - "is the sun shining?"
65. When was the last time you used bathroom? - 3 hours ago maybe
66. Say something annoying. - "I don't know"
67. Who's your hottest teacher? - PSHE one I guess
68. Have you ever kissed anybody in a cinema? - no
69. Which shoe you put on first? - the one I take first
70. Have you ever smelled a dog? - maybe
71. Have you ever categorically said no to a 'do' in bottle-twirl? - yes
72. Name something that's always in your mind? - "Why won't they grow up?"
73. Have you ever called teacher 'mom'? - no
74. Do you know anybody with name Helen? - yes
75. What do you want the most at the moment? - laptop! , camera, to go outside and do something active, dance, talk
76. Have anybody ever called you bastard? - yes, it's the name given to me by me.
77. What you do if someone steals money from your ATM? - ?
78. Do you have a diary/journal? - this blog, and on deviantart one that I almost never use
79. What's your moto? - "Abandon your fear. Look forward. Move forward and never stop. You'll age if you pull back. You'll die if you hesitate."
80. Do you wanna me eaten by lion or tiger? - Tiger, tigers are prettier.
81. Where will you be in 10 years time? - everywhere
82. What songs do you sing while showering? - none
83. What was the first thing you thought when you looked at mirror? - "I'm not gonna put on my eyeliner today, cuz I'm staying home all day."
84. What rhymes with 'window'? - whirl oh
85. Who was the last one who said he/she loves you? - don't remember
86. If you could choose between million euros and ability to fly, which would you choose? - million €
87. Do you prefer taking a picture or being on picture? - don't know
88. Have you ever had measles? - no
89. What's your shoe-size? - 39
90. Do you use many emotiocons in msn? - depends on my mood
91. Name three sites you visit everyday. - Youtube, Google, Twitter
92. If you would win with a lottery, what would be the first thing you would buy? - A white laptop
93. Do you wear many jumpers? - no
94. Are you shy or quiet in company with lot of strangers? - yes
95. Do you like ketshup? - it's edible
96. Who was the last person who hugged ju - Karmen
97. Do you regret something from your past? - no, everything is superb
98. Do you think you can sing? - yes, sbut depends on what I sing
99. What's your favourite name of opposite gender? - Eero, Jack, Friedrich.. and other names, I don't care about names much
100. If you had to choose a job right now, what would you choose? - undertaker

u stalking me?

* Name: Helli
* Will you answer all questions truthfully: ...who knows...
* Are you single: yes
* Are you happy: yes
* Are you bored: no
* Are you sad: no
* Are you Italian: no friggin italiano
* Are you German: no
* Are you Asian: no
* Are you angry: yes, I'm furious! o'----'o .. just kidding..
* Are you Irish: no
* Are your parents still married: none of your business

TEN FACTS:

* Birth Place: Pärnu (Estonia)
* Hair Color: at the moment kind of blond
* Eye color: Dark greenish-blue
* Birthday: 5th april
* Mood: H A P P P P Y Y Y ~
* Gender: Ffemale
* Lefty or Righty: righty
* Summer or Winter: none
* Morning or Afternoon: morning ♥

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

* Are you in love: yes, all year around in love
* Do you believe in love at first sight: no
* Who ended your last relationship: no one
* Have you ever been hurt: dunno, probably no
* Have you ever broken someone’s heart: dunno
* Are you friends with your ex: dunno
* Are you afraid of commitment: no
* Have you hugged someone within the last week: maybe, I don't remember
* Have you ever had a secret admirer: yes
* Have you ever broken your own heart?: no

TEN THIS OR THAT

* Love or Lust: dunno
* Lemonade or Iced tea: lemonade
* Cats or Dogs: cats
* A few best friends or many regular friends: I'd like many regular friends, but I have a few best friends
* Television or Internet: internet
* Pepsi or Coke: coke (..man, how could I choose pepsi when I'm allergic to it?)
* Wild night out or romantic night in: romantic night in
* Pink or Purple: pink (not light or neon)
* Day or Night: day
* IM or Phone: ..? .. phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

* Been caught sneaking out: no
* Fallen off the stairs: yes
* White water rafted: no
* Finished an entire jawbreaker: wtf?
* Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt?: maybe
* Prank called a store: no, sadly
* Skipped School: yes
* Wanted to disappear: yes, but not like forever

TEN PREFERENCES

* Smile or Eyes: can't choose
* Light or Dark Hair: depends on other stuff
* Fat or Skinny: skinny
* Shorter or Taller: doesn't matter
* Intelligence or Attraction: attraction with some intelligence
* Jock or Nerd: light jock
* Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
* Funny and poor OR Rich and serious: something between

TEN LASTS

* Last phone call you received: mother
* Last person you hugged : don't remember
* Last thing you drank: wildberry juice
* Last site you went to: youtube: [M/V] T.O.P - Turn It Up [HD]
* Last place you were: before home, at my mom's work

RELATIONSHIPS

* Are you in a committed relationship: dunno
* Do you want to be: yeezz..
* Have you ever loved a guy/girl more than anything else in the world? : no
* Do you still love them: ...
* Do you like someone right now: yes, I wouldn't survive if I wouldn't like anyone.

FAMILY

* Do you and your family get along: yes, but I don't like my dad
* Would you say you have a “messed up life”: no
* Have you ever run away from home: no, I'm not that stupid
* Have you ever gotten kicked out: no
* If so, how long: How long have I been kicked out? : ...

FRIENDS

* Do you secretly hate one of your friends: probably
* Do you consider all of your friends good friends: yes
* Who are/is your best friend(s): Karmen .. (and Helena & Desu)
* Would you die for them: depends on the situation and my mood
* Who knows everything about you: no one no one no one no one no one even I don't because I will get older and learn more about myself that I can't learn anyhow at the moment.

5 PLACES YOU WOULD LIKE TO LIVE IN AND WHY

1) Kind of big modern white house in city (not the centre), surrounded by pines, near sea - I like all that stuff and city makes me feel safe
2) Manor surrounded by birches, near sea - beautiful & aristocratic
3) Traditional japanese house with a traditional garden with a pond - inspires me to move myself & people who would go past my house would look at it in admiration (?)
4) Pretty victorian house - pretty and interesting
5) Big luxurious flat - my mind is too rich to live poorly

Special thankz to Karmen. :B

y u no leave my monstrous ego alone ?

Listening to: Shiro Sagisu - Torn Apart
Mood: sad (but still happy somehow)

Lazyness.
l a z y n e s s l a z y n e s s l a z y n e s s l a z y n e s s l a z y n e s s
l a z y n e s s l a z y n e s s l a z y n e s s
l a z y n e s s l a z y n e s s
l a z y n e s s

It's been like a month since I started feeling happy. I guess I love spring? .. Ofcourse there have been things that I'm really pissed off about too... still..
But today I feel sad.
Bleach is actually the only reason for my sadness, even though nothing sad happened there lately. and I still want to be one of the Visored.
But seriously, I don't understand why I keep believing in such impossible things. It's just somebodys fantasy. .. but no one living knows what will happen afterwards.. And I'm sure believing in impossible stuff can be strength somehow.

Blah, I have a real Aries ego. There are almost no sentences which don't contain 'I'.

intro

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Narihibiku Kane [-ringing bell(?)] (Plastic Tree)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Rainbows N'Stuff (Insane Clown Posse)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Pretty♥Vacation -夏-(AILE)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Agitated Screams of Maggots (Dir en Grey) [omg o----o]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Life 2 Die (SuG)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Ancient Rain (ScReW) [wait-wait-wait, how can this be a motto?!]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Without a Trace (the GazettE) [couldn't be better]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Forever Love (X Japan)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Feel Good Inc (Gorillaz)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Gigpig Boogie (Miyavi)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Wagamama Koushinkyoku [-The Selfish March] (An Cafe)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Orenji no Taiyou [- Orange Sun] (Gackt & Hyde)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Swan Song (Shiro Sagisu) [nooooo! I don't want to be a mere song!!]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Dark Carnival (Vanessa Carlton)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Lilin (Exist Trace)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Missing You (Eat You Alive)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
It's Sad (Hyde)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Honjitsu wa seiten nari [-Today is Going to be a Fine Day (?)] (Plastic Tree)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Self-Injurious (ScReW) [O______O'?]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Carry? (the GazettE)

WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOU?
nobody (Girugamesh) [dude, that makes zero sense]

HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE YOUR PARENTS?
Jail breaker (ScReW) [like what else could I ask for?]

HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
Number One (Hazel Fernandes)

HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?
Freaks (Girugamesh)

WHAT IS SOME GOOD ADVICE?
괜찮아 [- It's Ok](F.Cuz)

WHAT DOES EVERYONE ELSE THINK ABOUT YOUR CURRENT LIFE?
Love Addict (VAMPS)

WHAT WILL YOUR DYING WORDS BE?
Neverland (Exist Trace)

WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Very Melon [lolwut?]

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Ashita, Genki ni Naare [-I Hope You are Happy Tomorrow] (Miyavi)

WHAT DO PEOPLE ASSUME WHEN THEY FIRST LOOK AT YOU?
Faze Human. Raze Human (deathgaze)

WHAT WILL YOUR SAY IF SOMEONE IS TRYING TO MURDER YOU?
Answer (ScReW) [logical, cuz I'd probably ask why he's doing it]

WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Thetawaves (System of a Down) [cooooooool~]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF CHILDREN?
Jarring fly (Girugamesh)

WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
Killing Floor (deathgaze)

WHAT WILL YOU BE DOING IN A FEW YEARS?
senor senora senorita (Miyavi)

HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?
Beautiful Dirt (Dir en Grey)

WHAT WILL BE THE BIGGEST CHALLENGE IN YOUR LIFE?
Pictures (System of a Down)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Shadow VI II I (the GazettE)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Go to Hell (the GazettE) [nooo~ o____O]

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
No One (F.Cuz) [laughs, cuz she doesn't find how it's supposed to be funny]

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Sentimental Machine (Plastic Tree)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Vain Hope (ScReW) [probably]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Spilled Milk (Dir en Grey) [wohoo!~ what do I have to do to be milk?]

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
M.A.D [-Mutually Assured Destruction] (Hadouken!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
The Other Tales of Zanpakuto (Shiro Sagisu)

WHAT'S YOUR MOST USED PHRASE?
State of Emergency (Shiro Sagisu)

WHAT YOU DEFINATELY AREN'T?
Time Goes By (VAMPS)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF OTHER PEOPLE?
Ame ni Utaeba [Singing in the Rain] (Plastic Tree)

WHAT'S YOUR BIGGEST WISH?
2 be wiz U (Miyavi)

WHAT DO YOU HATE?
Mysterious (Dark Schneider) [definately not o___O]

WHAT WILL YOU BEQUEATH TO OTHERS?
Samurai Man (machine) [coooooooool~]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DESTROY?
Anecdote (Exist Trace)

WHAT DO YOU THINK AS THE FIRST THING WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
Children of Despair (Sadie)

WHAT DO YOU SAY TO YOUR FRIENDS OFTEN?
Dears (D'espairsRay)

WHAT DOES IRRITATE YOU THE MOST?
oh so tired (Shiro Sagisu)

WHAT DO YOU LOVE?
Crash (Gwen Stefani)

WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
Fallen Angels (Shiro Sagisu) [Noooooo!! they're like friggin insane!]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
intro (the GazettE) [lol, intro to what? ]


HAPPY EASTER!

四月 二十三日。

Mood: sleepy, little bored, low-motivated
Listening to: Mimicry - The Storm

*yawn* .. ミンナ , I'm sleepy ..

I'm homealone, like over months. Real miracle. .. so I decided to clean my room. My dad alwayz manages to make my desk dirty. .. like geez, and then he says that I'm messy. Why the fuck should I be organized when he's here putting my things i-don't-know-where n leaving books, (used) tissues and other stuff.. ?!
And I've watched some episodes of Lucky Star.. *yawn* .. I should continue my cleaning but I'm not motivated enough to move myself. I guess when I'd make something to eat then I would.
*goes to kitchen and stares at the fridge for like 3 minutes*
*puts little sausages in the oven and starts boiling the potatoes*

Already now I'm much more motivated! O____O
食物 ~

I have only 6 weeks more to go to school before the l o n g summerholiday. So much and so less at the same time. For me , actually weeks pass as quickly days passed when I was little. Like 6 long days. I wonder what I'm gonna do on summerholiday. It's not like I can annoy some of my friends all the time. It will be pretty boring. Like just watching anime or other videos and music 24/7 to just kill time.

If I were a...

IF I WERE A KIND OF WEATHER, I'D BE sunny during the dawn, then intermittently cloudy and sunny but also extremely windy (roofs would fly for sure), rainy in the late evening (warm all the time)

IF I WERE A COLOUR, I'D BE white with a bit of blue and grey

IF I WERE AN EMOTION, I'D BE multiple completely different emotions at the same time

IF I WERE A FRUIT, I'D BE a green sour apple

IF I WERE A SOUND, I'D BE a mixture of traffic noise, sad piano and violin, electronic sounds, crying, kids song, metal & rap

IF I WERE A FOOD, I'D BE milk

IF I WERE A PLACE, I'D BE (high and windy) top of a garbage dump

IF I WERE A TASTE, I'D TASTE LIKE sweet mint

IF I WERE A SCENT, I'D BE fresh and wintry crisp

IF I WERE AND OBJECT, I'D BE a lamp

四月 十二日。

Mood: cool
Listening: Hadouken! - Something Very Bad
In progress: reading 'Eesti Loodus' (nature magazine)

I don't know why, don't know why..

I have been such a good kid lately (Now I'm following the rules like a good boy! Like a good boy!). but it's not like I'm good either.. it's just that I'm washing dishes everyday. I guess I do it to get my computer quicker.If I continue like this then when the summer holiday comes I will have over half of the money. But the thing I'm most worried about is that my ultimate awesome laptop is sold out by the time I get the money to buy it.

Spring wakes probably everyone and everything up. I've had so much good time in last weeks.

四月 六日。

Mood: concerned
Listening to: Undertaker - Daisougikyoku

Had a birthday yesterday.
Deadly birthday
Biяthday
Bloody birthday
R-20 mad party
Bloody anniversary
Endless mad red party

Anyway, I got some gr8 stuff too. HECKYES! 35€ , necklace, hand cream, silver eye shadow?(?), candle, WATERMELON (w0ot!), heart-shaped candleholder (?), tiny bag, rabbit (not the living one), little bag with a little bunny, cards, underwear, hoodie, one of my fave drinks, book about cats, and memories.

Want a good japanese lesson? - klick
I wanna be pro too. :D
Song of the week - Undertaker - Daisougikyoku
イッヒッヒッヒッヒ　ヒッヒッヒ
つぎはあなた

四月 三日。

Mood: undescribable (not positive)
Listening to: Plastic Tree - Sangatsu Itsuka

Spring is here. And for I-don't-know-what reason I'm sad about it. I guess one reason might be that I can't watch my beloved white snowflakes fall down the sky again soon.

Tomorrow's my little cousins birthday. She reaches the wonderful age of 1. (Doesn't actually believe that it is so wonderful). And one day after that.. I'm having a birthday. I'm going to be 14!! NOOOOOOO!!!~ *panic* HELLNO!!! I DON'T WANT TO GET OLDER SO I'M 67 ONE DAY!!

And yesterday was Keishis birthday.. aah~ keishi~ .. ♥♥♥ He's probably the guy almost no one knows. XD

And I got a new template and stuff here. Looks 8 times better than the last one. *proud*

W00t :3

Have a Happy Go To Hell.

Mood: almighty
Listening to: the GazettE - Go to Hell

Boys and girls... everybody...

I'm too lazy to have a blog. srsly .. I write here mostly in summer.
And I'm really talented - I managed to steal a cold for myself for school holiday. I was 5 days sick, and now it's getting better little by little.

During the time I was sick, I started drawing a pic of Undertaker. Man, that's one wonderful dude. The sicko.


Somehow I've got the feeling that I have to get here a new design. It looks too orange. And as a narcissist it's not beautiful @ all. I'll check if I can do something. ^^

Yesterday I looked room memes on deviantart. Geez, some rooms were so inspiring. And it's sad to think that I have so boring room and it's not really mine either. For example I really like this room - klick. Well those posters and pics aren't so much my thing, but if I imagine that they aren't there, then it's a wonderful room. ♥

Mood: inspired
Listening to: Midnight Syndicate - Mansion in the Mist

Extreme sad.

I almost have tears in my eyes.

Earthquake & tsunami in Japan. Almost 7000 ppl are dead according to the current information. Well, I'm glad that the jrockers are safe.. but.. so many people lost some one dear to them. ... You are together with your friends and family from day to day. It's hard to understand how much you care about them, when you're constantly mad about (little) things. Then one day, something terrible happens. and you don't have those ppl around you anymore. That's the time when you really really understand how much you cared and loved them.

Rest in Peace.
Compassion.

Mood: covered by the awful information
Listening to: Shiro Sagisu - On the Precipice of Defeat

Disco's PV is still fucking awesome! .. HELLYEAH!!, psycho Billy!


But.. I feel like I should make a new layout here. It would be nice, because then the present layout has been here for 3 months and that's a long time enough.
I only have to think what pics I'm gonna use. This will take 2 hours for sure. XD

Mood: headbanging 8D
Listening to: SADS - Gothic Circus

Disappointed, don'tcha know.

Nah, I've got so weird mood today. (AGAIN!) All I know is that it definately doesn't want to laugh. Somewhere in the really bottom of my heart I feel happy. But I know one song that could describe my feelings perfectly. -

(Mike Wyzgowski - Nothing Can Be Explained)
Lost on the way, no one to blame, no one to save,
nothing to do with the way everything's changed

Lost I feel a little like, a child who's lost, a little like,
everything's changed a lot, I didn't like all of the pain,

Lost, confused, a lot of it, is hard to take, and cause of it,
everything's changed I thought I'd make it through the pain

Everything's changed

Given the chance I would happily dance on the grave of the one
who shows no remorse

Lost I feel a little like, a child who's lost, a little like,
everything's changed a lot, I didn't like all of the pain,
everything's changed
I'm confused, a lot of it, is hard to take, and cause of it,
everything's changed I thought I'd make it through the pain
everything's changed

Nothing is plain
Nothing can be explained, Nothing can be explained, nothing explained

Given the chance I would happily dance on the grave of the one
who shows no remorse

In despite of that I'm a little happy, I'm really mad (I guess?), resentful, sad, (very) disappointed and lost. o__o

I'm gonna say it shortly - I H A T E my homeroom teachers. I hated the previous, and I hate the present one. Man, they're lucky.. cuz it's like really rare if I really hate somebody. When I hate something then it's usually about situations or tastes or something else like that. At the moment I even don't remember if I had really someone else who I hated. Poor dude acts so damn weird and tries to insult me(?). She said she's disappointed in the behaviour, I'm gonna say I'm double disappointed in her behaviour. She crushed the hope of a nice homeroom teacher, thanks a lot.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to summer. I want to go cycling, get new wonderful memories of my friends, feel warm, dress lightly (best thing about summer for me). And I promise this summer has no way to sneak quietly away.

Mood: serious
Listening to: exist†trace - Under Mind

Unexpected...

So I played this shuffle game. It's my favourite game! Wehee!!~ .. 'cuz it's so fun. According to this I'm one insane psycho. :B

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Mongrelism (ScReW)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
I-e-a-i-e-i-o (System Of A Down) [lol]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Deflower (Moi dix Mois)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Vermillion (Girugamesh)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
torn apart (Shiro Sagisu)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Ivory and Irony (Deluhi)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Distorted Daytime (the GazettE)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Other Side in Blood (Moi Dix Mois)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
attempted suicide (Nega) [HELL NO!!]

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Love Addict (VAMPS)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
nightmare (Nega)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Under the Chaos (Sadie)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Existence (L'Arc~en~Ciel)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Trance Orange (Plastic Tree) [wtf?]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
POP is Dead (Miyavi)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Agony (the GazettE) [of course]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Blaze (Exist Trace)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Insanity (Lycaon) [yeah, I guess..]

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Weekend in The Lust (SADS) [O______O]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Secret in My Heart (VAMPS)

WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOU?
Haze (ScReW)

HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE YOUR PARENTS?
Paparazzi (Lady Gaga)

HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
This is How it Goes Down (P!nk)

HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?
Declaration of War (Lycaon)

WHAT IS SOME GOOD ADVICE?
Kira's laugh

WHAT DOES EVERYONE ELSE THINK ABOUT YOUR CURRENT LIFE?
People Error (the GazettE)

WHAT WILL YOUR DYING WORDS BE?
cops'n'robbers (Shiro Sagisu)

WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Freedom (Deluhi)

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Uhh Ehh Uh Ah Ah Ting Tang Walla Walla Bing Bang

WHAT DO PEOPLE ASSUME WHEN THEY FIRST LOOK AT YOU?
Faith (Hyde)

WHAT WILL YOUR SAY IF SOMEONE IS TRYING TO MURDER YOU?
Ogre (the GazettE) [logical]

WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Zombie (Versailles) [eh, wait! .. which one of them is zombie!?? O____O]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF CHILDREN?
Mad Marble Hell Vision (the GazettE)

WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
American Idiot (Green Day)

WHAT WILL YOU BE DOING IN A FEW YEARS?
Psychommunity (Hide)

HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?
Utopia (fake?)

WHAT WILL BE THE BIGGEST CHALLENGE IN YOUR LIFE?
I think I can fly (Girugamesh)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Kiss twice, Kiss me Deadly (Alice Nine)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Filth (Dir en Grey) [no o___O]

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
End in Tragedy (ScReW)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Dress up with Darkness (SuG)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Seventh Heaven (L'Arc~en~Ciel)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Sadism (SADS)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Just Dance (Lady Gaga)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Crawl (D=OUT)

WHAT'S YOUR MOST USED PHRASE?
Grudge of Sorrow (Sadie)

WHAT YOU DEFINATELY AREN'T?
Unknown (Exist Trace) [you sure? o__O]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF OTHER PEOPLE?
Bad Influence (P!nk)

WHAT'S YOUR BIGGEST WISH?
Snow -hey ohh- (Red Hot Chili Peppers)

WHAT DO YOU HATE?
Filth in the Beauty (the GazettE) [indeed]

WHAT WILL YOU BEQUEATH TO OTHERS?
Agitated Screams of Maggots (Dir en Grey) [they will be 'definately happy']

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DESTROY?
Barrier (Plastic Tree)

WHAT DO YOU THINK AS THE FIRST THING WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
pyscho culture (Sadie)

WHAT DO YOU SAY TO YOUR FRIENDS OFTEN?
Are you ready to ROCK (Miyavi)

WHAT DOES IRRITATE YOU THE MOST?
Break Down (Girugamesh)

WHAT DO YOU LOVE?
Conceived Sorrow (Dir en Grey)

WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
Dyspnea (ScReW) [no doubt XD]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Unexpected (Hyde)

Btw, Happy birthday to Kyo! 8D

御早う！
Tommorrow is the most pointless anniversary of the whole year.

Valentine's day.
畜生！
Even though I don't plan to make cards to anyone, I still feel like I should celebrate it.. 'cause I've got that Valentine's day feeling. (yeah, me and my weird feelings) And the reason why I hate Valentine's day is because it's like the day when you care more about your friends - you make presents, cards and lotsa other stuff for them. But I think it's stupid because for me it looks like on the other days friends aren't so dear to you.

幸せなバレンタインの日！

Mood: happy (o___O?)
Listening to: Shiro Sagisu - Clavar la Espada

One pitiful week has ended again. Time goes so fast. Weeks flow by just like they were hours. I still remember so clearly the end of August. I remember how I watched yaoi, and were anxious because I had to go to school. I remember all those feelings, warmth, boredom, happyness. Just like it was a little-little time ago.

Everyday I wonder, if the time goes so fast... will I realise soon that I'm alreay 50-years-old? Could I do something I've dreamt about? Could I have something I've dreamt about?
My life's so boring. Am I some kind of destinied to always play alone and never do anything fun and interesting with others? I've always wished to have friends in the same town or village or whatever so I could hang around with them in the evenings, or on days off school. I've always wanted that. I miss that the most.
Once I had friends in the same town I was truly happy. I so enjoyed it. But finding good friends is hard. World is full of those damn ignorant motherfuckers.

"There is nothing but fear reflected in your sword. When you dodge, you're afraid of getting killed. When you attack, you're afraid of killing someone. Even when you try to protect someone, you're afraid of letting them die. Yes, your sword speaks to me only of absurd fear. What's necessary in a fight isn't fear. Nothing can be born of that. When you dodge, "I won't let them cut me." If you protect someone, "I won't let them die." If you attack, "I will kill them." Well, can't you see the resolve to kill you in my sword?" - Zangetsu

Mood: anxious
Thinking about: future
Wishing for: the chance to make my dreams come true

UHH EHH UH AH AH TING TÄNG WALLA WALLA BING BÄNG!,

The answer why it took so long time to wrote here again is very simple this time - I didn't have internetz 2 weeks. Damn it. I couldn't watch Bleach. I got even so weak that I cried! How pathetic!
So it's pretty obvious that those 2 weeks were bullshit. Especially the last one. I could hardly bare it.

Then yesterday I saw one friggin scary trailer. o'_____'o
But I told myself that when I'm on so low level then I will kick my ass. So in the end it wasn't scary at all. Just some freaky shit. I ain't afraid of monsters, I haven't scared them even once in my lifetime.

From now on, life will change again. As it does everyday. Tomorrow is not today.
How fun, isn't it?

Mood: calm-looking
Listening to: Uhh Ehh Uh Ah Ah Ting Tang Walla Walla Bing Bang

Yesterday I had that Estonian olympiad. I must say it was easier than I thought, but still there were some weird exercises too which I couldn't get. I hope I get a good place.

Actually the place isn't so big problem. I'm still a bit worried about maths (weirdass) teacher.

I went to teathre yesterday too.
What a nervous play it was! OMG! All the problems and insanity gave me a bit headache, and after 10 minutes there I was completely exhausted. Vain women.

Mood: kinda disappointed
Listening to: ScReW - M.R.T
Starting to watch: Bleach
Trying to: cheer up

Like you would be any better...

Helooo~ ,
so that's what's a long time, huh?

I'm not gonna talk long about what I have been doing. It doesn't intrest me, and others too.
But I can say it's been pretty scary. And scary is that my maths teacher is getting so damn weird. On the first day when I went to school she probably tried to make me regret that I haven't studied anything for the maths olympiad (which of course didn't work on me). She looked kinda scary, and I couldn't say anything smart against it so quick. Then I had to work hard 1 week for that olympiad, which I did. And until now, teacher hasn't even said to me what place I had. She only said that it was somewhere after Tuka (he was 7-9), and looked at me like I definately would had to exercise it on my school-holiday.
This Saturday I'm going on a Estonian olympiad. And I (and Karmen) decided to stay home. When Karmen said to teacher that she should write it into the diary that we're not going to school tomorrow, teacher looked at me (again with that face, that I should regret this) and said that I have to come to school, because if I went to school on the day before maths olympiad then I should be able to do it this time too. WHAT THE HELL?!? I'm getting beaten (mentally) because i wanted to go to school one day before the olympiad, and before another I didn't. Shouldn't you guys be grateful?! I mean, I like come to school everyday, study well, and never show off that I actually don't have any intrest and joy in it.
My dad found a genius reason, why my teacher is acting so weirdly - she's having menstruation. LOL
Anyway I don't give a fuck what my teacher thinks, I can disappear anytime.

And the reason why I don't have any time is - I'm watching Bleach everyday.
Weheeeeee~, it's so interesting!!

and...
HAPPY BDAY TO AOI & RUI!!
♥♥

(well sorry, if I ruined your work, but I'll give the link for the original one too. click here you damned freeloaders )

Mood: serious
Watching: Bleach (episode 90 already, I'm fast)
Thinking of: the relative (Andra) who suddenly came over and wanted one weird box her grandmother prepared for her. Weird was that I could speak so freely with her. I didn't have much ties on this time.

心配そうな.

Nah, today is the last day of winter school-holiday in 2010/11. This is so bad. I'm so damn worried. Now when I go to school, I have to ski. GEEZUS!! And I have all the time something to study and worry about. I have to pray everynight for everything to go well.

+ one of the endless bad things is that I promised Math teacher that I will practise for the olympiad every week. And I wanted to take part of English olympiad, which I certainly don't want to do anymore. I don't like the speaking part there.
And also I don't want to go on the skiing-day. Somehow I have managed to skip 4 or 3 of them. But I'm not sure if I'm able to do it this year again. It's like a living nightmare.
And then there's this awful Estonian. I can say I don't stand my Estonian teacher. I want the old one back! I don't want to be with this weirdo for 3 years!
I feel like I'm tied up, when I have to go to school.

I WANT TO SURVIVE!

Mood: afraid
Listening to: the GazettE - Nausea and Shudder
Looking forward to: watching Bleach, being free
Not looking forward to: school

It's been a kinda long time...

So why haven't I blogged?

• I was almost alone this week. By that I mean that I didn't have my mom at home. (Dad was all the days here. Damn, I hate him. He PROMISED to go to the countryside for this week.) I had to cook and wash the dishes and do another stuff like that.
• My dad was mostly on the computer doing his fucking design.
• On Wednesday Karmen came here. (Yayzz, what a relief! Without her I would probably be very very angry.) So I was with her most of the time and we watched a lot of TV. Or when we were on the computer I didn't want to start blogging. (I don't like to do it when somebody is watching.)

^
Kammu's epic failure. She (/we) tried to take a photo of the sentence "Otsin UFOPORNOT!!!!!!!!!!" (= Looking for UFO-PORN!!!!!!!!). But it came out like "Otsin PORNOT!!!!!!!!!" (= Looking for PORN!!!!!!!!!). rofl


^
Telefoni seksi (phone sex), oh yeah.



^
"Tallinna mees kohtux suusexihuvilise Tallinna kutiga täna öösel." (Man from Tallin would like to meet a guy who's interested in oral sex from Tallin, tonight).
Gays!!, *rises hands and roars for support*

And today I got my another Christmas presents (from my aunt, granny and mom again). I got nice bracelets, white gloves, and extremely cool boots, sushi set, underwear (wohoo~), chocolate, and 39 €.
*faints because of the money*

Btw, Happy birthday to Mizuki! :B

Mood: kinda calm
Listening to: ScReW - M.R.T
Starting to watch: Bleach