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A B N 0 R M A L N E W Y E A R ! ,
F U C K Y E A H ! !

Damn, I'm so happy. Hugs, anyone?

To day I went shopping with my mom. (Yes, I go shopping with my mom, and I don't care what others think.) I got a necklace I've wanted for a year, new chopsticks, a weird thing, and a nice T-shirt. I hope my dad won't steal that T-shirt, because he likes these kinds of things what are on my shirt. >___<

And remember kids,
the last day of the year is made to be the funniest and awesomest day of the year!,
so be happy, laugh, smile!



Mood: cheerful
Listening to: Alice Nine - Rainbows
Staring at: new necklace

Alone is not good.

G R E E T I N G Z Z Z ! ,
*starts thinking* .. eeetttoooo~ , I still don't know what to write.
Anyway, I'm waiting for tomorrow. I'm sure I'm gonna have fucking much fun. One of the best days. And on the day after tomorrow we'll have a new raging & sorrowful year! .. Isn't that gr8?

Next week I'll be pretty much alone. Aah, how sad. Actually I'm still with my stupid cat. Naah~ , I needz humans in the house at night!! *despair*
I'm pretty sure if I'm all the time alone, I'll be in trouble.


Mood: pervy
Listening to: Perestroika - Mindless

On the boring Sunday...

Lol, I guess I just wanted to announce that I'm still alive., because I really don't have anything special to write here.

Actually I've been pretty buzy. But comparing to the time before Christmas it's really nothing. For example I knit, watch Trinity Blood (anime) and think of new-year promises.
Yesterday, I refreshed my memory and drew a picture on computer (+ used something that I have never tried before) - pic , yea, go on, say i epic failed. -.- ..

Lately I discovered that I love to do push-ups. Isn't that great?


And today I tested my skills in make up. I must say my skills have proven to be better than I thought.


And happy bithday to Shuu!


Mood: impressed
Listening to: exist†trace - オルレアンの少女
Going to: kitchen
(to make gingerbreads with my mom)

Merry Xmas!

GGREEETINGS MOTHERFUCKERSS!!~




Have a very fun, gay, interesting, awesome, sparkly, lovely Christmas!
I love Chris + tmas!
メリークリスマス


Mood: cheerful
Listening to: Hollywood Undead - Christmas in Hollywood

And then we're all like w0oT!

So, suckers..
only 1 day to go until it's Christmas. I hope I get something too! .. Something what I like, not some kind of impractical crap.

Well, today we didn't do almost anything at school. The hardest thing for me was to write a poem in English. It was hard to me because the theme was Christmas and I wasn't allowed to write anything obscene, vulgar or scary. At the end I still managed to do something:
I see little snowflakes,
snowing on the lakes.
Cold wind blowing trought the air,
gentle breeze trought my hair.

And tomorrow I have NO FUCKING LESSONS! !
F R E E D O M ! !


誕生日おめでとう リト!
♥ ♥

Mood: cheerful
Listening to: Benny Benassi - Satisfaction

wowwzz..

I just must write it here:
the Christmas party was pretty awesome! Some of the parts were H I L A R I O U S ! ! Siim in dress as the Sleeping Beauty. *giggles*

So tomorrow is like the last day this year when we're still studying something. Actually it's a pretty pointless day. We could spend it at home too. I don't see point in going to school when we don't too anything special there.

Damn, Helena is such an idiot. I'm gonna take revenge. She said that if she'd beat me, then there wouldn't be anything left except for my bones. And then she slapped me in face with (fake) flowers! Grr, no motherfucker should dare to do it. If she continues doing stuff I hate, she will get fucking beaten by me, and I won't stop it if it hurts. If you hurt me, then you must be more hurt than me. No way I'm gonna leave without revenge.
Anyway, I H A T E her! !

有難う


Mood: wow
Listening to: Lycaon - Declaration of War

Whan happens once, can happen twice.

Greetings bitche$,
well.. today was one really gr8 day! It means that I had a good mood all day. I still won't forgive that Desu hugged me 45 times, because I looked similar to someone. Being so fucking weird makes me wanna kill somebody. o'___'o .. and the other not so good thing was that Kaku wasn't feeling so good. :( Everyone!, let's hope she will feel better soon! ♥
I hope tomorrow will be nice too. Actually I'm pretty nervous, cause I'm not really sure how and if I'm gonna get home. If I could, then I would skip this Tuesday. I really don't want to go to the Christmas party. I have no friggin' idea how I'm gonna survive it without any injuries.

Btw, happy birthday to: the weird and funny awesome Die!~
^ㅂ^


Mood: hoping
Listening to: SADS - See a Pink Thin Cellaphane

Darkness is my spiral mind...

Hey~
First of all, I don't know if I'm happy, angry, annoyed, sad, evil or something else. I guess I just want to be alone. I don't want to see my (extremely) annoying and complaining dad, my happy friends, ignorant people.
The worst thing is that maybe tomorrow I'm still in this lugubrious mood. But I don't want to do anything bad to my friends. It's this mood when I'm violent, mad, aggressive, disdainful, reckless, gloomy, insane-like, cold, cruel, revengeful, and searching for negative emotions.
I think the reason why I have this weird mood is my dad. He fucking stole my freedom. He fucking annoys me. He's fucking self-centered (like really, it makes me hesitate if he sees other people like people who have something to do).

Without it.. I'm really happy. Because I have all the presents ready. I've got lots of new and awesome sentences. Guess it's just the another room in my head. Where's pink milk, candy, friendly atmosphere and lots of other stuff.

Btw, I've got a new haircut. Since Friday. I never knew I was actually so good hairdresser.




Fly... Fly... My Butterfly
Cold voice and scales of crows
Blazed voice and and scales of crows
Crows are calling for me...
Crows are calling for me...
Crows are calling for me...


Mood: in pain
Listening to: SADS - Darkness is My Spiral Mind

FANSERVICE!

,cuz we all have needs!





Mood: pervy
Listening to: the song in the fanservice

Congratulations~

Heyy~
So today is the day when I have many many birthdays.
Happy birthday to:
my lovely mother,
mysterious badass bassist Aggy,
(sadly dead) awesome Hide,
badass Mello,
annoying Shannon and her annoying sister Jade,
and Ryo (don't remember which one XD)
!!


Mood: cheerful
Listening to: ScReW - ファム・ファタール
Staring at: msn DP

Thank you for being fooled.

Hellohh~
I must say I'm pretty tired, because for almost 2 weeks I've been fucking buzy, and it's not gonna end after this weekend too. I guess it ends when Christmas are over.
Today I'm going to Põhja(ˇ)kes(?)kus(?) to buy some christmas presents. I need like 4 or 5 Christmas presents and 2 birthday presents. o'__'o ..
One of the worst things is that (it's Sunday,) my mom has birthday tomorrow and I have no idea what gift I have to give her. I don't even know if we are going to celebrate it. And I will very regret it if she's going to be sad because she is the only one who organizes her birthday and truly cares about it.
Actually, there are more bad things. I still have to read a book in English, but I so hate reading fiction. I think it's fucking pointless, if I have to imagine loony things then I'll do it myself. I have no difficulties with imagining impossible things. Plus some of the characters act so foolishly and weakly that I get freakin' mad at this book.

You know, one day my best friend said so right thing about me - You will never know if she's lying or telling truth. That's exactly how it really is, because I've got amazing lying skills. There is still one thing that I really don't know about it - where does this skill come from? I'm still Aries, and they say that Aries can't lie at all. I guess it comes from the moonsign then - Pisces, because they have that skill too. But yeah, I'm not always lying. I lie usually about things like: what I think about something, my emotions, my thoughts. But I do it for others well-being, because most of the things I see and others make are awful and pointless for me. About emotions, because I like to play with people. I so so so like to fool them. And it would be extremely hard to understand me or get along with me if I would show or my emotions. I guess they would change in every 2 minutes. And I lie about my thoughts, because they're pretty vulgar, brutal, insane, cruel, (very) perv and abnormal. And it's been like this since I remember things. I have always laughed in my head about other people who see me as a cute, shy and good person. And they don't know anything what I think about them - and this is so enjoyable for me.

Mood: serious
Listening to: Dir en Grey - Lie Buried with a Revenge
Playing: PetSociety

Wintry sky.

As I wished... it's snowstorm! I so love snowstorms. They're so wonderfully white and cold. I love the strong freezing wind and cold snow. I love the chaos, sorrow and pain that it causes.

Today was a weird day. We had only 2 lessons and only 11 students were at school from my class (we have 27 students in our class). So I could stand about a hour in this beautiful chaos. I'm sure I won't forget it.

Actually I would love to be alone today. I don't like that dad is home. I almost hate it. And I can get pretty aggressive if someone doesn't let me be alone and sad. Yeah, I can be fcking rude and violent then.

A wintry sky and the broken streetlight, cold wind.
Unknown shadows, the footprint of desertion.
Freedom was taken.
An understanding is impossible.
If it wakes up a gloomy ceiling.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum it is soiled.




Mood: blinded
Listening to: the GazettE - Taion

Black ceilings, barbed wires...


So today was the quiz. We had a great name - Kaljukikud (something like cliff-teeth in childrens' language). And well, we kind of failed again... I don't know how but the year olders were in the first three teams. O____O
I guess we have to look around more and be interested in nature... but for me it's not very easy thing to do.
Others came with me to my side... and after a while things got pretty weird.. but i rly liked it. Geez, me so perv.

I think my personality has changed a little bit in last days. Because I'm much more hardworking than before. And I think a lot about perv things... I actually feel like I'm also somehow torturing myself, because I imagine about painting my ceilings black and putting barbed wires in my house (the one I have in my head). Also one day I saw a dream where I had 2 big scars on my face - they we're pretty awful like I had burned my face or something. And I have been kind of scared of 'nothing'.

"Teletubbies and sleep-walkers!" (teams)

Mood: afraid
Listening to: Ansinomy - 暗黙知

So buzy...

Grreetings, sXxXers!,
Today was a pretty scary day because I had to do my presentation. Thank god, almost all wentwell. But still something always has to go wrong - Üllerin uploaded the wrong presentation ( we had them about 3 different) and we couldn't talk about some things. At least we didn't laugh like some did...

You know, I'm a pretty valuable kid - I've got about 40€ in my stomach. Well it's because I have swallowed 2 pieces of my braces. XD

This week is going to be as busy as the last two weeks.. Because I have to read a book in English, and tomorrow I'm going to a nature (and what ever else. They have questions from flea to church.) quiz. I hope we will have fun there like we did last year, and even more hopefully I hope we have even more amazing name than last year!
"Tammetõr(/l)ukesed! Wuhhuuu~!!" (Acorns(?)! Woohoo~!)

Mood: cheerful
Listening to: ScReW - ファム・ファタール

Updates probably finished.

Hey~
I'm almost finished with my updates.
Well, from now on I mostly blog in english I think... developing my skills.
^__^
On Saturday I'm going to geography olympiad. I hope I don't fail there much. At the same time I would like to fail like hell, so I could laugh afterwards.
Today I got to know the resolutions of eenet's competition. Geez.. I hate hate hate art people. Those smartasses didn't give me third place.. Third place went to one dude, who I thought would be first. ö__Ö
But I'm still satisfied because I found so much great videos today. ... and some of them were pretty suspicious. >__<



Mood: pervy
Listening to: Benny Benassi - I am not Drunk